I am one of those people who believe in the New Year vibe. Because for me, it is a chance of rebirth or redirection and as if that is not enough, I will forward those messages of ‘2018, Thank you for the lessons. 2019 I’m ready’. Those forwards that make you feel like you can conquer the world.

That was me in the beginning of this year. I had so much on personal development that I wanted to do but tell you what, I have fallen flat on my face. I HAVE FAILED.

You see, I am the queen of goal setting. I had watched all the videos I can on vision boards and read possibly every piece of material. So, In the beginning of this year, I wrote down my goals. I spent quality time writing my list on goal planning sheets. I set in-depth goals that would impress the experts. I had watched how to create a beautiful journal on YouTube. Of course because YouTube is the place to go. I walked into Text book center and got myself some very colorful pens as well as ordered a cute journal from African Hub bookshop. Because I can be extra when I want to, I even got myself cute little stickers.


My theme of the year was ‘As a woman thinketh, so is she’ from the book of Proverbs 23:7. So I chose the content to consume and only fed myself positive vibe. At least I discovered great podcasts that I still listen to

Taking stock, 11 months later, I HAVE TERRIBLY FAILED. Not even a quarter of those goals have been achieved. I have only managed to do so little

I do not have a problem with setting goals, my
problem is achieving them. It was not until I sat down and did a personal
analysis that I discovered reasons why I was not achieving my goals.


I am suffering from this disease guys. It’s a subtle act of corruption and it has corrupted my precious time. Whenever I watch insta stories and listen to Patricia Kihoro call herself ‘Procra’, Sis I got you a twin. Nancie Mwai, of Shop New Level has constantly spoken about this too. In 2019, I have postponed literally everything and I feel so bad about it. Things as simple as taking photos of my favorite books- can you imagine that


I am always blaming myself, my circumstances, my situations on everything I cannot do. I had purposed to indulge in online courses every other month and do a few other things, but something happened. Mid this year, I got robbed and one of the things they went away with was my laptop. I got sad for a bit before purchasing another one. It’s December 2019 and I’m still hanging on to that episode, not a single online course have I engaged in.


Everything you want is on the other side of
fear. I got this autographed on one cookbook I bought. This has never sounded
so true as it does now. The fear I have had of starting projects I had purposed
this year is what I am regretting now.

Lack of consistency

Consistency is not rocket science. Its
commitment. I had purposed to have healthier habits than all of my years
combined. I needed to drop sugar, which I did for a month. Practice
Intermittent fasting, which I did for some time and the results were actually
visible. I fell ill, was on meds and your guess is as good as mine that ship
has sailed this year.


This has eaten into my small achievements
because of always feeling like it was not enough. It all comes down to mindset

However, I am proud of myself because I have admitted that I have failed. Looking back, what have I learnt;

Set Goals that motivate you

As cliché as it sounds, when you set goals for yourself, it is important that they motivate you: this means making sure that they are important to you, and that there is value in achieving them. If you have little interest in the outcome, or they are irrelevant given the larger picture, then the chances of you putting in the work to make them happen are slim.

SMART goals

The simple fact is that
for goals to be powerful, they should be designed to be SMART

The truth about achieving goals is that you’ll only follow through when they really and truly matter to you.

Write them down

There is something about referring to something you have written that brings you satisfaction

Comfort Zone Couch

It doesn’t take a special five step process or a magical formula. I discovered most of the time it only takes a slight adjustment in your daily life. The adjustments can be so small and minor that you miss them looking for something big and spectacular


Renew your mind. Refocus your thoughts. Re calibrate your approach.


There are people who have earned a PhD in speaking life out your goddamn soul. Keep away and do what it is that needs to be done.




I‘ve missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I’ve lost almost 300 games. 26 times I’ve been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.”
–Michael Jordan